What I Learned Poaching an Egg

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Toronto, Canada

The past few months blogging have been a bit sporadic. I’m the type to stick her head in the sand and hope things pass. They never do and eventually I have to confront them.

I haven’t been my usual over-sharing self. Not because I was hiding how I felt but I was still working through it. When I wrote The Year of Focus I shared that I wanted to simplify things in my life. I streamlined work, decided to travel less and also confessed I’m in a relationship.

I’m really happy.

 

I haven’t been writing because I’ve been loving life in Toronto, connecting with friends and joyful to be in a relationship so amazing and something (to be honest) I never thought I’d have.

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But where does this leave Bacon is Magic? What’s next for the bacon girl who left a relationship to wander the world, balancing travel with an ever growing waistline? That’s what I’ve been contemplating for the last few months.

A while ago I shot this how to poach an egg video with Chef Rouge. I was practically embarrassed to admit that I didn’t know how and so the simple act of him showing me turned into a video.

And then it clicked.

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I’m approaching my four year anniversary of leaving my old life. The one where I worked in an office from 9-5, stayed in a long-term relationship that was never going to go anywhere because I was afraid I wouldn’t find someone else, more afraid to buy furniture from anywhere but Ikea because I needed to feel like one day I could escape if I wanted to.

And I did.

colca canyon me happy

Much has changed in the last four years. I evolved from someone who falsely appeared outwardly confident to someone who was on the inside as well. I found security in admitting self-doubt. I realized fear is not weakness. Vulnerability is not fragility. I dated great men, lousy men and even men who couldn’t speak English. I made a lot of mistakes and hopefully I learned from some of them.

 

I wandered the world and somehow found myself.

 

And so now I’m here learning how to poach an egg. But this isn’t the end of my story. Learning to poach an egg made me realize that I’m evolving and so Bacon is Magic needs to as well. I’m still going to travel. The wonderful thing about dating a chef is that they understand unconventional hours and making the most of the precious little time they have.  I have some vague plans for travel later in Spring but nothing immediate.

I’m content to just be here. In the moment. Something I’ve never been able to do.

I’ve been poaching eggs, learning how to make beef heart bourguignon and roast bone marrow. I’ve been exploring Toronto on weekends and falling in love with home all over again.

And so that is what Bacon is Magic will evolve into. My favourite things around the world and at home.

And here is the video of how to poach an egg and while it’s nothing revolutionary it changed my perspective of how the site will reflect my life: with more videos like this, dishes I loved around the world, dishes I love at home.

I hope you enjoy.

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Comments

  1. says

    Congrats Ayngelina! On both your new found appreciation for home and your comforts of a relationship/confidence.
    I find myself in a similar situation where I love exploring my city/valley and travel – when I can’t do one I do the other. My blog, as always, is in constant evolution like myself. While I don’t feel comfortable in focusing solely on southern BC I am satisfied in where I am going and where it’s gotten me.

    Since you’re exploring Toronto, have you been to The Black Hoof? I visited your city for the first time last year and ate there. Loved it!
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    • Ayngelina says

      But of course, one of my favourite restaurants – blood and brains terrine! Chef Rouge actually knows the chef there so we had a great time. But that’s part of what I realized. I have been out having a great time in the city and yet sharing none of it.

    • Ayngelina says

      Eventually you will know. It was an amazing feeling when I realized I had been nomadic for too long – there was never a doubt that I wanted a base in Toronto.

  2. says

    I’m glad you’re able to share so much on this blog. Its scary! I’m using it as inspiration to be brave on mine. Life’s seasons are always difficult to embrace, the leaving and the staying. Good luck to you.

    • Ayngelina says

      I wasn’t always brave but every time I’ve been vulnerable on this site I’ve been rewarded with support. Just try with it a little bit and you’ll see. There’s nothing wrong with admitting you don’t know what you’re doing – no one does.

  3. says

    I’m glad you’re happy, Ayngelina! I think sometimes we are afraid to let ourselves feel happy because we fear that we will be disappointed. To be happy requires us to let go of doubts, which takes an immense amount of courage because most of the time, it’s so much easier to doubt than to trust. In any case, congratulations in achieving your goal!! :)

    Aaaanndd… I had no idea poaching an egg is THAT simple!

    • Ayngelina says

      Thanks so much Pauline. This is really the first time I’ve just been in the moment and not worry about the future. I owe so much of that to travel.

  4. says

    Travelling for four years is a long time, so I can understand that you are currently feeling the urge to stay put. Good luck with it! Oh, and I am useless at poaching eggs. It never works out for me. :-)

  5. says

    Such beautiful post, I’m so happy you’ve found peace in your life and the joy of everyday things. Thank you for including us on your journey! On that note, I watched your lovely poached egg video lasts week (also ashamed that I didn’t know how to do something so basic) and tried it out the next morning. Perfection! :)
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    • Ayngelina says

      Thanks Cassie that means a lot, I’m really excited to start working on a new path for this site.
      And LOVE that the video helped you.

    • Ayngelina says

      Ha, you would be surprised how many people emailed me that they finally made one for the first time after watching this video.

  6. says

    Love to hear that you’re so happy where you are! I think this may even make your blog more “real” to a lot of the world- especially since most people have to balance a home base with their love of travel. Happiness is really what matters in the end, isn’t it?

    • Ayngelina says

      Don’t be nervous. Actually that is ridiculous to say, of course you will be nervous. But you will work your way through it and your life will change in an amazing way.

  7. Steven Garrett says

    Hahaha now I won’t feel like such a toss because I can’t (couldn’t) make poached eggs. Thanks for the video. Had no clue vinegar was involved!

    Glad you are happy. Happy is important. And yeah, post more vids on some cool and easy yummy recipes now that you dating a chef;)

  8. says

    I hope you don’t think this too presumptuous of me… more than just learning how to poach an egg, I think you might have also learned how to live and be happy again. … and exploring Toronto on weekends may or may not have had anything to do with it. Who knows?

  9. Emma says

    Hi Ayngelina, just the other day I was talking with my husband about sticking the head into the sand.He had to tell something to his boss but was a bit afraid..But I always tell him this are just things in life you learn something new and because of that we want more in life!
    I think you are doing great with learning how to poach an egg and you look really happy. Wish you all good and keep living your dreams :)

  10. Nika says

    If people would not stick their head in others business everyone would be happyier. If there were more people like you, but its ok as long as we love ourselfs we will find people like you. As I found your blog :)
    Kepp smiling Ayngelina

  11. says

    Awww congrats on the relationship. I’m also feeling the same way. Just enjoying being home with my loverboy and not having immediate travels plans although that might change soon in the summer.

    Loving the videos by the way. Make more of them!

  12. Lisa Kellenberger says

    I loved this post. As a travel blogger I’m constantly thinking about where I want to go next, but this article reminded me to stay grounded and find happiness where you are. Your own city has just as much, if not more, to teach you. Thanks for writing!

  13. says

    Hi Ayngelina, thanks so much for this brilliant post! Travel is so great but I think that one of the most important lessons you learn from travelling is to be able to see the world in a different light, and there is no reason why you can’t do that at home too. I love having a base to call home, whether it is for a few months or a few years. I am planning on living in Sydney, Australia for the next few years to work in contract positions, explore everyday life in this beautiful City and reconnect with friends and family. I am also planning to continue travelling and will do lots of short trips as well as a couple of longer multi-month ones. Being a traveller doesn’t mean you need to be continuously on the road all of the time, it works for some people but it isn’t the only option and there are so many fantastic reasons to having a ‘home’. Good luck with this new chapter in your life and enjoy rediscovering lovely Toronto!

  14. says

    Lovely! Life is about learning and relearning so just let go, slide and follow your heart wherever it takes you! Traveling or not, it’s how we put things in perspective that makes each and one of us wiser. Truly, there are things (if not a lot) we can learn even in such a mundane activity as poaching an egg :-)
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